There are some things I wish I could forget or at least have the pain lessen a bit. I wish I did not think about it daily and I wish it was easier for me to deal with.
Today I would have been 28 weeks well almost 29 weeks and in my third trimester. I wonder if we would be having a boy or a girl. I wonder how our baby would feel inside me and if they move around alot. I wonder if our baby would be a kicker or not. I wonder if our baby would like to hear their daddy's voice when he speaks. I wonder what our little baby would look like. I wonder how my body would have changed and what I would have looked like. I wonder how our baby would be developing and if it were healthy.
Having a miscarriage has been hard and not easy. I think about it every single day. It is something I would never wish upon any woman or their family. I was hoping I would be able to get over this loss easily and that I could move on. I am working on this everyday. I know the Lord had something different in mind for Daniel and I.
Today I would have been 28 weeks well almost 29 weeks and in my third trimester. I wonder if we would be having a boy or a girl. I wonder how our baby would feel inside me and if they move around alot. I wonder if our baby would be a kicker or not. I wonder if our baby would like to hear their daddy's voice when he speaks. I wonder what our little baby would look like. I wonder how my body would have changed and what I would have looked like. I wonder how our baby would be developing and if it were healthy.
Having a miscarriage has been hard and not easy. I think about it every single day. It is something I would never wish upon any woman or their family. I was hoping I would be able to get over this loss easily and that I could move on. I am working on this everyday. I know the Lord had something different in mind for Daniel and I.
One of my sisters-in-law gave me this Willow Tree during Christmas. Whenever I look at it I tear up a little. It is perfect and just what I need sometimes.
My heart goes out to those who have gone through the same thing I am going through. I am very blessed that I have the gospel in my life and very blessed that I have an amazing husband that does his very best to help me with this and holds me when I am having a bad day.
I can't wait till Daniel and I become parents because we both feel that something is just missing in our lives right now.
I'm sorry Sarah. I don't blame you one bit for thinking about it daily. I would too. Having a miscarriage is one of my biggest fears, I just think it would be so tough. But keep your head up, you'll feel better eventually. Love ya.
ReplyDeleteSarah, I can't even imagine how difficult that would be to go through. You are one strong girl. You are going to be one amazing mommy someday! You and Daniel make such a cute couple. I hope you are having a lot of fun adventures in Texas!
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